A while back I was admittedly very hurt when someone I know who goes by “bcspace” attacked my blog as being typical “anti-Mormon claptrap” pretending to be reasonable and thoughtful. Apparently, he considers my blog the Internet equivalent of a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
I didn’t react very well to the attack (and even he would have to admit that it was an attack). For the record, my blog is not about anything in particular, but is an attempt to express what I’m thinking and feeling every day. That it has gravitated around Mormonism is simply a reflection of how much Mormonism is still a part of my life. But it did sting that my thoughts and feelings were reduced to a petulant attack on Mormonism.
But where I went wrong, I suspect, is in taking this attack personally. A friend sent me this little snippet from bcspace this morning, and it has me thinking:
[Exmormons] just want their ears scratched as evidenced by how uptight they are when you point out the inconsistencies in their testimonies. It’s a case of not being able to take their own medicine. Their blogs pretend to be poignant yet are intentionally interspersed with the “exit story” a strawman version of the LDS Church. They will be your “bestest” friend until you unmask them.
It is not difficult to illustrate this with just a few posts.
I think people like bcspace really do see things in terms of good and evil, Mormon and anti-Mormon, and to him, I’m clearly in the anti-Mormon camp. Hence, my defensive reaction to him wasn’t a result of being hurt but was a result of my anger at having been unmasked.
bcspace talked about his approach as “tough love,” and I’m trying to see it that way. It still doesn’t work that way for me, but I do acknowledge my fault in taking it personally and responding badly. For that I apologize, bcspace. I hope we can be friendly once again.