I hate knowing that people I care about think less of me because I no longer believe. I think that’s the worst thing about leaving: no matter what you do or say, it’s your fault. You’re in the wrong.
For the last three years people have been telling me that I should just keep my beliefs and feelings to myself. Apparently, discussing problems with Mormonism is threatening or hurtful or whatever. But I would never ask others to keep their feelings quiet; that’s a recipe for resentment and depression, if you ask me.
So I’ll write what I think and feel, and I’ll feel bad that some people think the worst of me for it.